Folded paper roses & swings.

You'll have to cry me up.

2009-12-18T06:51:01Z

love pixie lott's cry me out, its just so apt. a super 'ha in your face' kinda song.

heading down to the cafe later for work! gah me and sam are super nervous though everyone says we'll definitely pass... haha. went down to marina sq after work yesterday to meet dom for dinner. Ate at.. cafe cartel. Sam was being super spastic, laughing at his own jokes. hahahaha. AND dom and sam were like looking at my eyes, seeing when i'd roll them again. Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy is it such a big deallll. Now sam has like a kazillion names for the different ways i roll my eyes. -.- HAHA. Sam ordered some fish and prawn thing while dom ordered the ribs. Guess what. Dom only remembered he can't eat meat after eating it cus he just went to the dentist for his braces. -.-

I couldn't finish my pasta. So we looked like 3 kids who couldn't finish their dinner. Haha. Yeah so after that, we left down to topshop cus they were having a sale. And I left my starbucks tumbler at cafe cartel. How awesome. And I only realised it when I was on the train with dom. -.- soooooo you can imagine me panicking on the train cus DUH, ANYONE WOULD WANT A CHRISTMAS STARBUCKS TUMBLER, right? so then dom suggested we go back there to get it and called his friend to check if its there 1st.. So we went all the way back to marina sq to get it back(: THANKS DOM!
gah i hate it when i forget stuff.

Wonder how it feels like to be able to feel as and when you like, even though you know you shouldn't because its not supposed to happen this way. I don't know how I can feel like how you are now. I have forgotten how it feels like, because when it comes around again, all that fills my head is how I should be walking away because I think I've seen enough to know where that will end up. I'd rather forget how it feels like than mentally beat myself up everyday.. all because ;

Really, how is it like to feel the way you're feeling now?

God, please put things back into order.......

Spoonfuls of terror!

2009-12-17T04:06:03Z

You guys SO gotta watch this. hahahahaha. It won best film in the cannes festival.

So yes... I'm back. bought a million things. bought my first pair of vans. Altogether I have 2 pairs of shoes, 2 pairs of sandles, and a pair of heels. I don't want to count the number of tops and bottoms I have, hahahaha. me and sam kinda got the job at settler's. got this probation thingy we have to pass then we'll be officially on the job. Haha. Am trying to find time to pack stuff for camp but i'm super super busy for the next threee days cus of work and church stuff.. Looks like i'll be packing on saturday night...

Heading down to the cafe later for training.. a little nervous but excited, haha.

HEYONG: we SO have to go to BKK together.. like after your A's or something! The weekend market there, is AWESOME. Like, there are a million stash shops there, plus lots of other shops selling all our denim shiz and vintage chanel bags + your VANS! Food there is awesomeeee, there's your fave pineapple rice and the all-time thai iced tea(: I might be going back there in feb cus my mum's having a meeting there.. damn if only you weren't going to JC. ): I MISS YOU SO MUCH. oh i bought you this light blue v neck shirt and this keychain that you said was cute last time.

hehe. okayyyy i'm off to prepare to head out for work!

Kids, they'll learn to grow up anyway.

2009-12-09T14:12:31Z

Its just a matter of how they fall, how much it hurts, and how long it takes to pick themselves up again. Its all just a matter of time. (:

hmmmmmmm went over to the airport at some ungodly hour to send off the people going off to vietnam. waa talking to ed bout vietnam makes me wanna go back there too cus of the awesome beef noodles and spring rolls.. etc. HAD MACS BREAKFAST!!!! super happy hehe. yup so after they left me walt and samz slacked round the airport then went over to walt's house to slack again. hahaha. did random covers like love story, use somebody and fallin' for you! we wanted to pump up fallin' for you but sam's fingers were dying so to ask him to sing and play would totally kill him even more ): so its just me singingggggg gahhhh. haha anw hope you gaiz like it, its on my fb profile which walt tagged me in. It was super fun doing it : moses and gracia would help us position the camera hahaha and mo will tell me the parts which i went out of tune. -.- haha but yea(: super fun. Can't wait to do more!

off to bkk tomorrow and will only be back on... tuesday!
still missing my bestfriends and girlfriend. ): at least walt's back hehe. spent like 3 hrs plus on the phone w him after he got back from hk. lol. brain burn.

ahhhhhh i wish david choi goes live again!!! (: he's super cuteee hehe.

I WILL MISS YOU GUYS.

i wont say anything except that...
its gonna hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt realllllllyyyy baaaaaaaad.
sorry ahh x)

Hmm you were going to say something?

2009-12-07T08:13:25Z

you said :
Love you, ___ = Hi I have a crush on you.
ARE YOU EVEN SRS LOL. -.-

Currently: talking to walt and lem on msn and waiting for my strawberries to grow!
I want to : Delete every single message in my inbox.
But I can't because : There are messages that I wanna keep.
I'm happy because : There are no more saved messages and pictures in my phone.
I'm even happier because : You were stupid enough(: 'enjoy while it lasts huhhhhhhhhhh.' Fall and fall deeper til you break everything.

I can't wait for : BKK on thursday!
Must buy: Doc martens, vans and redbull singlet.
I miss : Tianyun Heyong Tabbi
Last night/This morning : I woke up at 11.43am and realised I have piano at 12pm. GG.
I will not: wait anymore.
I need to: LOSE WEIGHT.
I have never: Been in love.
But: I love those around me(:

I love: David Choi & Michael Buble.
I hate: Spiders and Jerks.

God's been awesome(:
off to bkk on thursday lemme know if you gaiz want anything(:

For the love of Michael Buble!

2009-12-03T07:14:24Z

Ignore the previous angsty post. I have no idea why its a public one either...
Anyway........... onto happier, more fufilling things,

I spent the whole morning/half afternoon listening to Michael Buble(: My plan to sleep at 1130pm every night failed miserably last night. Couldn't get to sleep til 1am plus. But........ I woke up before 12 today! So thats gotta be some kind of achievement huh. (: Drew up some kinda schedule today, cus I feel so disoriented without one. Hahahaha. Must be the aftermath of my o level 'life plan'. Yay I love making plans cus I feel more organised and not so messy. I now have this stupid looking workout plan. I need to lose at least 4kgs ASAP. (i'm also on a diet cus I'm terribly broke, my account has a miserable amount of $4.28)

I need to...

- Pack my room (i get no help, but I shouldn't be complaning, should I? Well, its not MY room, its shared. But the other person never helps...) - Lose weight
- Wake up at 8am every morning
- Sleep at 11.30pm every night.
- Save money
- Drink more water (which includes getting a waterbottle....anyone wanna get the starbucks christmas tumbler for me? (: )
- Clear the mess. (which won't be done very soon.. considering that its been going on for a couple of years now)
- Start playing the guitar & writing more songs.
- Start singing cus goshhhhhhhhhh i really can't sing nowadays.
- ~~Redecorate my wall~~ Ahh scratch that. Who needs a nice wall when we're probably going to move out soon?
- Plan/decorate my new room!(:
- grow spiritually stronger in my walk with God everyday(:
- Start planning 'the christmas presents' and 'christmas cards' list.
- GET A JOB AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Lastly, EARN MORE MONEY IN FV. (cus I just spent 50,000 coins to expand so now I'm super broke to the the extent where I have to rely on my animals and trees for coins....) Current balance: 10 coins

Am currently waiting for farmville to reset so I can go earn more money by helping with my neighbour's farms.....
(see don't I sound so pointless in living my life everydayyyyyy) Like srsly, who waits for farmville to reset...

HEYONGWAY if you're reading this: I LEFT MY PIANO BOOKS AT YOUR HOUSE THE OTHER DAY AND NOW YOU'RE AT KOREA AND WON'T BE BACK TIL JAN. WILL YOUR GRANDMA KILL ME IF I TELL HER I LEFT MY BOOKS AT YOUR HOUSE? ):

bye all. xx

Uh-huh, just what I needed. -.-

2009-12-02T15:00:56Z

I need to rant. So badly.
Thank God I'm not hurt. Annoyed, rather. I'd rather be annoyed than hurt any day.

Annoying alliterations. (OH I JUST MADE AN ALLITERATION THERE, you see?)
oh, right.

I might as well congratulate you then. You've done an awesome job, really. Nobody has ever made me feel so whirled up with many different emotions at one time. Well done man, honestly.

ohmygosh where the hell are you heyongway. i have a billion things to tell you that nobody else would understand. hurry come home please ):

Can't wait for christmas.

2009-12-01T07:16:36Z

Ahh christmas.. Thats when starbucks has those cute little cups with the snowflakes! & I've been wanting to try the toffee nut thing that they have cus everyone's raving about it. Haha. & where flip plays those reliant k christmas songs after JG. hahaha.

Super lazy to blog nowadays.. my farm is growingggggg i now have the harvester, tractor and seeder!! Now working towards to expand it. gahh am gonna be super lonely this week cus all my bestfriends are goneee! BOTH my bestfriends flew off yesterday. Heyong's not gna be back till 2010 Jan, while Ty will be back when I'm in BKK ): Tab's off on wednesday & walt flew off this morning to HK. Missing you all already. ):

I don't want to live life thinking that I can't live without it. Because I can. Its not going to be easy to walk away from this but right now, its the only sane thing to do. Its not like I want you to know, although I kinda wished you did.

Kinda proud of myself that I'm this strong to walk away & to hold this in for so long(:

You'd come out of nowhere, & into my life.

2009-11-25T13:04:23Z

Prom was awesome. I'm a pig. (means i'm too lazy to post pictures. which also means to go see my fb instead)
I'll probably post them up soon when I'm feeling nice and patient. HAHA.

Was super tired last night. Called bta last night & talked for about one hour or so & was nearly falling asleep to all his GL ramblings. HAHAHA. Woke up at 12 plus, still felt so tired. I'm watching It started with a Kiss again! Its super funny and brings back old & stupid memories at that poinf of time when I was first watching it. Haha. Remember 'it started with an sms.' ? Hmmm............................. Anyway, the guy's really hot! Hahaha. I had actually wanted to watch Gossip Girl but megavideo and those other links were spoilt or not working or just not loading. Haha.

I'm falling in love with michael buble until david choi posts up more covers & originals. hehe. Was watching the making of crazy love the other night. Oh goshhhhhhhhhhh he's so cute! Totally reminds me of jansen ackles in his supernatural gag reels. But yeah, michael's wayyyyyyyyyy cuter(:

Tomorrow: out with tabz.
Friday: out with laura!
sat : worship retreat + JG + musician prac
sunday: church + (random plans that haven't been made)

dean martin is rocking my speakers right now. oh the martini.

That is quite enough.

2009-11-24T03:32:12Z

Prom's tonight! Was rushing from place to place in town w YL and F yesterday. Got our awesome masks + rings + shoes + bags. (: Got a frickin cheap bowtie from SA w heyongz & went to WAFFLETOWN! been ages since i've been there, the people working there are still there. Haha. Had the usual : single scoop ice cream waffle & shared the pasta with heyongz. Yay I love waffletown. (:

Quite excited/stressed for prom. The only thing that is making me go for prom is cus I've already paid for it. If they accept refunds, i'd gladly refund. ): Its so..... gahhhhhh to put on all that makeup, hair, heels, dress..... Maybe cus its school people, the company matters. Hope we don't sit with x_x people later. hahahahahaha.

Everyone has changed & things will never be the same no matter how hard we try to change it to what it was before. I hope you're happy. That is all I need to know.

I haven't spoken to you in ages.

2009-11-22T14:52:02Z

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once
Babe, we were once

But luck will leave you cause
It is a faithless friend
And in the end when life has got you down
You've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around

So hold on to me tight
Hold on to me tonight
We are stronger here together
Than we could ever be alone
So hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart
But it's no one's fault
No it's not my fault

Maybe all the plans we made would not work out
But I have no doubt even though it's hard to see
I've got faith in us and I believe in you and me

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause it's you and me together
And baby all we've got is time
So hold on to me, hold on to me tonight

There's so many dreams that we have given up
Take a look at all we've got
And with this kind of love
What we've got here is enough

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause we are stronger here together
Then we could ever be alone
Just hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright
Hold on to me tonight

They always say we were the lucky ones

X

2009-11-20T14:02:37Z

Uneasy.

2009-11-20T13:57:35Z

Vice versa, lol.

Chalet was fun/random/siao/crazy. G & V going high and G's SUPER red face. hehe. Drinking lots of curry in a useless attempt to neutralize the 'effect'. HAHA. Dancing to random korean songs at 2am & then falling asleep. Watching YL play some random RPG game cus we couldn't get to sleep while V and G were both knocked out.. Sitting in the bathroom while V showered cus we were all scared.

V: Why y'all book this chalet? So hard to go.
G: Cheap what. 2 nights $200 only. & its quite big.
V: Its cheap and big & hard to get to, THATS WHY ITS HAUNTED!

V: -sings- 'tappin' on your window'
Me: Yeah later you hear someone/something tapping on the window besides you. (:
V: ^$#*(#(@&% !!! wth isa!

It was fun anyways(:

Have I ever told you guys how awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee DAVID CHOI IS?!

Watched 'A Christmas Carol' today. Typical sappy christmas movie. Fell asleep in the middle part cus I was so tired.

I just realised that this post is kinda in bits and pieces.
Why's it only 10pm.
I wanna sleep soon.

God loves you.

You treat me just like, another stranger.

2009-11-18T04:47:09Z

Farmville is screwing up on me right now so thats why I'm blogging. HAHA.
No i'm not obsessed.... really............... &.. NICK STOP RELATING EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE TO FARMVILLE!
''you hungry ah? go eat the crops you planted in your farm la, & you can cook the cow, beef steak, v nice. ''
-.- wth nick.

anywayzzzz my hair is currently a lil brownish red. Not much of a diff though, might wanna go buy a dye kit later(: hehe. Will be heading down to the chalet very soon. Meeting nick 1st then we're gna go down tgt. Hope it doesn't rain! I really wanna go WWW but nick's SICK. ); hope the others will wanna go. But F's not in town. gahhhhh.

Going out tmr with Heyong for prom dress shopping!
Friday's plans are...a little wonky. Prolly out for dinner with A & a movie with walt + flip + some other randoms we haven't even thought of/asked.
Saturday.. CHURCH! (:
Feels so good to be saying that I"m going to be in church on Sunday. Like FINALLY.

God has been really good(:

OH AND ONE MORE THING

this this this this THIS IS NOW MINE. (:
THANK YOU SANGHEE/ASKAY/SCHUYLER <3

Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.

2009-11-15T15:12:32Z

In love(: with a new song! ahhhh don't love songs make you all happy inside. hehe. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (:

Saturday :

Woke up at 545 am to give someone a wake up call. Went back to sleep. Woke up to prepare the hotdogs/showered/packed. Train-ed down to vivo to meet the rest. Was super late. LOL. Slacked most of the time. Watched people play cards, watched the guys flick the frisbee/volleyball around. Bitched. Read magazines. Listened to MICHAEL'S NEW ALBUM (yes, we're on a first name basis now. hahaha). Watched 27 dresses with mich and eunice on the tiny mp3 screen.

Headed home to get ready for grandparents's 50th wedding anniversary! Hahaha the whole affair was so cute & funny. They were making jokes in cantonese and taking weird but sweet old married couple pictures with the 50 balloons in the private room. Grandma looked so happy(: awww.

Sunday:

Church was good(:
Cycled with the girlfriends + Karen at ECP.
Guitar hero-ed & ate there.
We all became zombies after awhile & my eye sockets were burning.
Cabbed home.

Probably doing my hair tomorrow! & gna have my 1st piano lesson ever since o's have ended. Yay can't wait(:
Now pete is saying I should do dark red.
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Got nothing much to blog about cept' bout that fact that you're such a mindscrew. ):

God loves you.

P.S : NEXT YEAR: MUSE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE BABEHHHHHHH/

Officially in love with the song.

2009-11-13T13:24:37Z

His song is still playing on a loop over my headphones. Lets see if this song'll beat david choi's 'that girl'. I think about... last year or early this year, i listened to 'that girl' for 1.5 weeks straight! As in, I didn't listen to any other song except for that one(: hehe. Still remember when Pete thought I was going abit insane.

Anywayzzzzzzzzzzzz today's Friday the 13th! Yes, friday the 13th indeed, considering the many 'misfortunes' that happened today.

1. We took the wrong bus, in the opposite direction and only realized it after awhile.
2. We had to take a cab to the studio.
3. Josh left his fender in the cab and had to pay 12 bucks.
4. The amps/sound system were kinda screwed.
5. The drummer had to leave in 30 minutes after we reached.

But.....................
We still had fun(: Hahahahaha.

Jammed Love Story for about... 5 times?!?!?! The studio was packed with the... 15 or 14 of us. Josh sang 21 guns :D and two other people sang two is better than one... HAHAHAHA INDEED............................ Super fun, even though the amps and speakers seem to have random feedbacks coming out from nowhere. After jamming, we went down to Bugis for an early dinner. Laughed sooooooo much, the guys were talking bout their VS days & the stupid pranks they pulled on random people. Water baloons, throwing lime across the canteen?!?!?!! and amongst others. hahahaha. Took the train back to Paya Lebar and 76-ed down(:

' hi my name's bryan.'
'oh, can I just call you iron maiden dude instead?'
'oh that works too'

(he was wearing an iron maiden shirt!)

Down to sentosa tomorrow, then to some weird family dinner thing which popped out of nowhere. Can't wait to catch up with the girlfriends! Miss them sooooo much. Gonna do my hair next week. Jet Black or Brown with lighter brown highlights??!?!?!?! Jet black seems super boring but nice at the same time. Brown is super cliche. Red is tempting but not sure if I suit it. Thinking of trimming shorter in a different style with bangs & a jet black dye. Or should I just curl it!?!?! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
So far: heyong says jet black. Walt says black is safe but red sounds cool. Heyong says no to red. Fion says brown's kinda cool.
HAHA.

Hope I get some decent sleep tonight. Didn't sleep a wink last night. Felt horrid in the morning. Maybe I'll sleep early & wake up earlier to prepare the sausages for tomorrow(: My eyebags are........................ HORRIBLE. Just horrible. Can't even draw some liner on those lids cus i'll look like a panda. ahhh i'm yawning. Uploading yesterday's pictures now..

OH I BOUGHT THIS YESTERDAY ITS REALLY AWESOME.

Coffee + Rose. Two of my favourite things(: Got it at Sephora and am addicted to it, haha. You gotta admit that the packaging's pretty too. Note to self: Never leave this in dad's car EVER AGAIN. My body shop passionfruit lip butter got reduced to a slushy mess(in the container, of course) after leaving it in my dad's car. Which means... under all that heat and humidity.. Ew. Cannot leave this in my dad's car cus it cost me 14 bucks!

Okay i'm tired.
God loves you!

I just haven't met you yet.

2009-11-10T14:46:09Z

Get me this for christmas? (:

Haven't heard from him in agesssssssssss & now he's back(: his new music vid's the cutest, haha. (he looks slightly like jensen ackles, don't you think so?) except jensen's ten times hotter. teehee.

pleasepleaseplease get this for me on christmas! (or maybe my dad will get it out of random-ness)
p.s don't you think the cashier at the end totally looks a lil like katy perry?!

Anyway.....tomorrow's 11 nov! Which will also mark a year and a couple o' months to something. AND FREEEEDOM.
off to clarke quay tomorrow with the girls(: till lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haha. can't wait.

List of things to do

- Jamming! (the vs gang + samz + riduan + & maybe possibly LWPD)
- Shopping (Fion, Girlfriends/any random people)
- Get hair done. (I have no idea what I wanna do with my hair. Its just flat and long......... WHAT SHOULD I DO?! ideas pls)
- Record vids, write more songs, possibly form a band.
- Sing and singgggggggggg.
- Get a Job...... (neeed to fund my macbook and iphone)
- Possibly get FINALLY involved in powerhouse in one way or another(:
- Get my piano and singing lessos back on track again!
- Pack my room. (hate sharing it, i can't wait to have my own room)
- Re-decorate my wall with more photos!
- Start designing my new room
- Fall in love with david choi again.
- Not like anyone. (HAHA hmm inside thing... ^^)
- Lose weight, fast.
- Get rid of eyebags
- Start taking pretty photos with the Diana!
- Massive guitar hero sessions with the bfs.
- Influence somebody to eat matcha ice cream with me cus hy's off to korea! );

'I JUST HAVEN'T MET YOU YET' IS PLAYING ON A LOOP ON MY COM RIGHT NOW. HAHAHAHA.
OH NO BUBLE MIGHT JUST BE THE NEXT DAVID CHOI?
Walt says david choi might be the next buble. LOLLLL.
if only buble played the guitar huh? then he'd be perfect. hehehehe.

I will miss :

- waking up at 8am every morning
- making a cup of coffee after that
- having ugly eyebags
- yawning every 2 secs
- bitching bout o's to samz
- being excited bout tomorrow with SangHee
- Talking to myself
- Having random sore throats
- staying up late at night til 5am with coffee
- math tuition and AMK hub trips with heyong
- Being annoying/crazy/jian with heyong
- Hmm laughing at JY lookalike every morning at AMK library
- Falling asleep in starbucks.
- Starbucks

Long long longggggggg list. (: ohwell, i was told to enjoy it while it lasted...

ANYWAY, we've sold the house! The rents' are really interested in cherry hill... Sounds pretty from what they say though. We'll get our own little garden & all the garden house stuff. In any case, I just want a house where there is space for the piano, & my own room(: Definitely must have space for my piano.... Will be darn cool if my room can fit my piano and guitar! so i can randomly jam whenever I want. yayyyyyy. Can't wait. OH AND I"LL FINALLY HAVE MY OWN WARDROBE!!!!!! Which also means... less of the 'hey have you seen my grey tank top?'' ''er no' & then you find it on facebook the next day. LOL.

Lord you are good & your mercies endureth forever.

just typed this to say that

2009-11-09T15:27:45Z

God is awesome for giving me awesome friends and i think i would be dead right now if not for him
i'm getting scared for my results but
i know that he's got my future perfectly crafted in his hands
how more perfect can my future get?
so.............i'm commiting everything unto him(:

okay 3 more mins before this shuts down
GOD IS AWESOMEEEEEEEE TTM.
hahahaha.
and God loves you with an everlasting love.
sleep well................
BYE.

So how's X?

2009-11-08T12:38:23Z

Hello everyoneeeeee. I finally feel like uploading e pics onto my lj. They're all actually up on facebook already so this is actually a pathetic attempt to try & make my blog more interesting and colourful for those people who don't like to read my senseless ramblings.

Sweet Sixteenth: 16th October
Okay so I didn't really celebrate it with my bestfriends on the day itself. Went out with my aunt for awesome seafood! followed by a birthday cake at home (strawberry shortcake from bakerzin!) Went out on....sunday with the bestfriends.

The balloons they bought! <3

David's in the box(:

Bored in the cab.

What a huge contrast to heyong's volcom's and my vintage oxfords. 5 bucks. hehe.

the awesome mango cake that heyong's dad baked for me!!!!

the hugeeeeeeeeee card with ty's little drawing on it with me saying ,'' I'm 16!'' -.- inside joke.

@ frolick, cineleisure.

awesome thai iced tea @ nanathai.

@ primitive art. hehe.

no prizes for guessing on why there's a condom in the middle of the yoghurts.

Study Sessions: some random bus ride.. dug some pictures out.

Cell Outing with the girls! plus a random far east photo w F and V.

Last day of school.
Guess how we spent it? HAHA. We spent it by walking out of school at 9am to head down to Bishan to go eat Swensons. Coincidentally, it was my birthday too(: so it was kinda awesome spending it with you guyzz.

Love you girls! <3

Hehe guess what I got yesterday... Waitttttttttttt before I show you guys what it is. no i'm not suddenly crazy bout floral prints. i've always been crazy bout them its just that hardly any stores carried nice ones. the only floral stuff around were those ah-lian tops going for 5 bucks at bugis with materials as thin as linen. hahahaha. thank you topshop x1000000000000000 !!! yes, another floral top. hehe for 19 bucks this time!! i hardly ever wear bright pink but its roses! so i love it. will match with the non-existent denim high waists that i'll get in bangkok!!!

oh no once rach sees this she'll totally announce it to everyone that i'm wearing a new top again. hahahahahaha. ah who cares :D

My life has been... farm-ville-ish. hahahahahaha. i'm totally obssessed with getting more animals and earning enough to expand!!! totally need to expand cus I wanna plant more crops and my animals will have more space too. Am only a few more k til 25000 coins then i can expand! was so close to 25000 but not enough, so have to plant more crops. hahahahahaha. no i'm not a freak k.... really. (: samz is a pig.

okay this has been a rather lengthy post...
Just wanna say that God has been really really good. Really. Makes going through this journey more worthwhile knowing that I went through it with him beside me(:

God loves you ttm. (AHAHAHA) i bet heyong will laugh when she sees this.

I LOVE UNION JACKS!

2009-11-07T08:31:29Z

AHHHHHHHHHHHH your blog totally made my day, promise. Just reminds me of how I'm SO super glad I've graduated already and you're still there.

no I dont really love union jacks. FION YOU GEDDIT? (: HAHA. no actually i really love union jacks (can you tell i'm being sacarstic)
okay ii'm off to town for dinner.
bye

i really love union jackssssssss.

HAHA.

Two

2009-11-06T11:02:46Z

In the middle of the night I was sleeping sitting up,
when a doctor came to tell me, "Enough is enough."

He brought me out into the hall (I could have sworn it was haunted),
and told me something that I didn't know that I wanted to hear:
That there was nothing that I could do to save you,
the choir's gonna sing, and this thing is gonna kill you.
Something in my throat made my next words shake,
and something in the wires made the lightbulbs break.
There was glass inside my feet and raining down from the ceiling,
it opened up the scars that had just finished healing.
It tore apart the canyon running down your femur,
(I thougth that it was beautiful, it made me a believer.)
And as it opened I could hear you howling from your room,
but I hid out in the hall until the hurricane blew.
When I reappered and tried to give you something for the pain,
you came to hating me again and just sang your refreain:

You had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare.
You were just a little kid, and they cut your hair,
then they stuck you in machines, you came so close to dying.
They should have listened, they thought that you were lying.
Daddy was an asshole, he fucked you up, built the gears in your head,
now he greases them up. And no one paid attention when you just stopped eating. "Eighty-seven pounds!" and this all bears repeating.

Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy,
wearing silver rings with nobody clapping.
When we moved here togehter we were so dissappointed,
sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed.
It killed me to see you getting always rejected,
but I didn't mind the things you threw, the phones I deflected.
I didn't mind you blaming me for your mistakes,
I just held you in the doorframe through all of the earthquakes.
But you packed up your clothes in that bag every night,
and I would try to grab your ankles (what a pitiful sight.)
But after over a year, I stopped trying to stop you from stomping out that door,
coming back like you always do. Well no one's gonna fix it for us, no one can.
You say that, 'No one's gonna listen, and no one understands.'

So there's no open doors and there's no way to get through,
there's no other witnesses, just us two.

There's two people living in one small room,
from your two half-families tearing at you,
two ways to tell the story (no one worries),
two silver rings on our fingers in a hurry,
two people talking inside your brain,
two people believing that I'm the one to blame,
two different voices coming out of your mouth,
while I'm too cold to care and too sick to shout.

You had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare.
You were just a little kid, and they cut your hair,
then they stuck you in machines, you came so close to dying.
They should have listened, they thought that you were lying.
Daddy was an asshole, he f___ you up, built the gears in your head,
now he greases them up. And no one paid attention when you just stopped eating. "Eighty-seven pounds!" and this all bears repeating.

Heartbreaking?

Listen to this.

listening to the antlers's new album sends chills down my spine. oh the way silberman writes his lyrics.. beautiful. these songs have got to be one of the best i've ever listened to.
can you believe it : silberman kept himself in isolation for 2 years just to write this album. away from his friends, family. just being alone.

artsolicious @ 2009-11-05T21:50:00

2009-11-05T13:57:37Z

Woah-oh-oh they're telling me its beautiful.
I believe them but will I ever know?
The world behind my wall.

Tokio hotel!!!!! (: bill totally looks like a girl he's kinda pretty... hahaha. marco i wanna do a cover of world behind my wall!

hmm i got my ibank device thingy today. hahahaha they have pretty stickers to go along with it too. it stops here. i'm never ever gna get a credit card, I promise. even when i'm married haha. cus I dont think i'll pay my bills. even my dad agrees! lol. as long as anything is on credit, i'll never get it. atm cards all the wayyyyyy.

______

the above was typed yesterday but something happened and i didn't wanna be accused of blogging bout 'stuff' so i closed it so she wouldn't say anything even though i'm not blogging about 'stuff' HAHA.

uh my eyes are getting red and irritated dno why. I'm not very sleepy but i feel like sleeping. I'm so lazy to go mug bio. askay (i call her askay cus its easier to spell! but otherwise, pretty name, schuyler). kay yeah askay says to try other methods to keep awake. cus coffee, sadly doesn't work for me anymore. samz says its all in the mind. I kinda believe him but i still think coffee keeps you awake. haha. heres what happened, i drank coffee one morning and started revising geog, after 30 mins i fell asleep. !!!!!!!!

i'll try not to sleep tonight? hahahahaha. maybe i'll put like 5 teaspoons of coffee grounds or something. and drink tea on top of that. I STILL HAVE TO REVISE LIT : TKAM & MSND. DAMMMMMMMMMMMMITTTTTTTTTT. kayyyyyyyyyyyyyy maybe i'll go call samz later so we can study on the phone. just hope we wont end up talking and crapping away about random irrelevant things that make us super gl.

OKAY I GOTTA GO STUDY NOW.
I LOVE FARMVILLE.
BYE
GOD LOVES YOU
AND SO DOES WEEZER.
I LOVE YOU <3

We've already graduated man.

2009-11-03T11:30:51Z

DAMNNNNNNNNNN PISSED! can't stand people who talk to me like that as if they're far above me when I bet they haven't even taken their o levels. do they even know what o levels are. DAMMMIT.

i can't wait for friday cant wait for friday cant wait for friday CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAY
after friday, everything's practically over. PRACTICALLY. Not everything, but ALMOST ALLL.
been listening to lotsa folk/indie music lately. Hahahaha. heying says its indie so i guess it is?! i have no idea what indie is and how it sounds like. supposedly indie music still sounds mainstream to me no matter so yeah.

Anywayzzzzzzz go listen to Emmy the Great!

'We almost had a baby' is kinda funny too. I like how she uses simple guitar chords, and simple lyrics, weaving together simple but....enchanting melodies. Kay I wouldn't call them enchanting. IDK! but I really like her(: and she's chinese mixed english. but she still looks super chinese. haha.

Listen to Conor Oberst....

the lyrics are achingly beautiful.
go listen to Laura Marling if youve got e time too(:

me and nick have got our after o level plans tentatively drafted out. hehe.

CANT WAIT FOR MY DAD TO RESTORE MY ITUNES LIBRARY! i've got like a kazillion songs i wanna remove like all the rnb shiz my sister sneakily synched in! and all the random korean songzz she synched in too. cant wait to add all my 60s rock n roll stuff and all the Bread and The Platters and david choi songs!!!!!!

); hate being a pig. Me and nick are such pigs. All we think about is food food food and MORE FOOD! If like that ah.... then I'll really be old, ugly, fat and disabled. yezzzzzzzzz i'll accept the fact that i'm an invalid. ); nobody likes pigs. just wanna buy like a million baggy black shirts so i can live in them til i lose some weight. swear its showing on my face and arms and everywhere everywhere everywhereeeeeee.

HEYONG IF YOURE READING THIS : WEEZER ft. SARA BAREILLES I want you to (acoustic)

okay, its time for geog. just think bout it: tomorrow, i won't ever have to touch 'earth our home' anymore. HAH YEZZZZZZZZZZ.
my phone is spoilt so don't bother calling/texting. no, i'm just kidding. i think its spoilt cus nobody's texting or calling. HAHA. er don't call, text!!!!!!!!! and i'll reply if don't feel mean. hee.

BYE GOD LOVES YOU AND WEEZER IS SOUNDING AWESOME OVER MY SPEAKERS RIGHT NOW.

In a daze...

2009-11-01T12:32:03Z

YAY ty helped me harvest my crops yesterday while i was studying at *$ with nick. hehe super productive day cus we did alot of work. Went over to nick's house to do ss, talk about globalisation and disturb nick's cute little brother and his hamsters! OMGGGGG you should see how samuel treats hammie. ITS DAMN SCARY. Was so tempted to just take hammie away from him so he can stop torturing it. :( feel for the hamster. AND NICK JUST SAT THERE. Yeah okay. So at about 2 plus, we were both so ughhhhhh we went out to get some beancurd & talk bout ss along the way.

Bottomline: productive dayyyy. & nick's a pig. HAHA. all we could think bout is food, food and MORE FOOD. samuel is cute but he should stop torturing hammie. man i wish i had a younger brother.

OHH AND I CAN ADOPT ANIMALS NOW! was just looking at my live feed and john found this pink cow so i went to adopt it(: heh. yayyyy thanks john. finally my first pink cow. okay i know i sound like some kid but i'm totally in love with farmville. hahahaha. you should see nick's face yesterday when i was on e phone w ty asking her to help me harvest my crops. I HAD NO CHOICE. IF NOT THE RICE WILL ROT CUS IT HARVESTS IN 12 HOURSSSS. (okay enough farmville talk)

OKAY BYE.
NICK STOP RELATING EVERYTHING TO FARMVILLE or..
i'm gna kill emo and there's nothing you can do bout it(:
samuel can help me too.
hehehehehehehehe.

bye god loves youuu. xx

Isabella is awesome.

2009-10-30T08:06:55Z

Random thoughts, I'm too lazy to type them all in paragraphs.

- God is awesome.
- I should stay away from all things confusing and mindscrew-ish.
- Random nights comprise of talking/texting BTA til the wee hours of the morning talking bout random bangla shit and being gualan. HAHA.
- Singing til I think I'm gonna have a sorethroat soon. Shows how much I wanna jam.
- SHOULD I BUY THAT PRETTY LAPTOP CASE FROM OSF?! Its so pretty... but I haven't even got my laptop yet. And macs are not that big...
- I want my hair to grow longer!
- I need to shop...
- Mindscrews should only be confined to all those weird RPG games... things that don't pertain to our life. Really.
- whoooooooops, the title of this post was actually something else.. I KNOW ITS NOT OBVIOUS AND THAT NOBODY WOULD EVER CRACK IT. but still. analysts out there might just have that amount of brainjuice and busybody-ness to crack it. I'm not risking that(: so therefore, isabella is awesome.
- I wonder if anyone reads my twitter. I hate flooding my fb page so I use twitter instead...
- Have I ever told you how good coffee tastes?
- I want a coffee machine, badly.
- God's awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome.
- The sec2s this year are damn frickin smart. (thank God they werent as screwed as I thought they would be)
- I can't wait to graduate. Okay, technically, I've already graduated... but still. I'm still wearing the eeekish pinafore.
- Will I die soon if I continue to drink coffee at 9pm every night, sleeping only at 4am?
- HAHA I wonder if anyone has read this post til this point.
- I don't think anyone ever reads my blog anymore.
- I need to do something to my hair. Its disgusting.
- BTA calls me X and I call him BTA. HAHAHA. its a switch of names. (inside thingum)
- y = mx + c (when y = 0, what is x?)
- I love my bestfriends. I can't call us a clique cus we're closer than that(:

HELP (I know I sound like some farmville idiot but I can't help it) :
I hate how I can't adopt the pink cow and kitten I found and other people like tim and quek adopted the kitten and cow I FOUND!!!!!!!!! ): I alrd clicked 'adopt the kitten!' like 5 or 6 times, they just redirected me back to my farm and NOTHING HAPPENED. and then an hour later, a notification pops up from the side saying '' Clement Quek adopted the kitten you found!'' !!!!!!!!!! dammmmmmit. I want my pink cow too...... ); mich, how?

I know i'm supposed to be studying, maybe bta keeps telling me to relax too much. Hiatus from all my online activities? HAH. Even heyong tried to but failed in the end. Big phail ttm. I don't think I'm getting any sleep tonight. Need to finish governance + ecology and impacts on ecosystem. Wanted to go out to study today but heyong's having her amath! Stuck at home, hoping that it'll rain the whole day. But the rain only lasted for.... 15 minutes?!?!?! The dark clouds and thunder's so fake, as if there's gna be some hugeeeee thunderstorm. I wish.

Random: david choi reminds me so much of a childhood friend whom I haven't spoken to in a VERY very very long time. the eyes, the humour, face, nearly everything. hahahahahahaha. wonder if he still reads my livejournal... hmmm....

My two SS textbooks are kind of like promotion brochures to promote how awesome and organised Singapore is. Kind of like a brochure to hand out to all other foreigners to promote Singapore as some awesome civilized, democratic, multi-racial country. Not like I don't agree.. its just annoying. Its like they indirectly compare SG to venice, as how we're so similar to them but they failed and we haven't. So therefore, 'singapore is still the best!' Fine I shall stop ranting about SS, there's nothing I can do about it anyway. Singapore is awesome, uh-huh.

God loves you & I gotta go do governance now.
xx

Your love is irresistible.

2009-10-27T11:06:24Z

Papers have been rather okay(: English was amazingly easy compared to last year's cats (ugh). Got 4/5 for vocab! which is kinda amazing considering how I'm always getting all of it wrong... Nothing beats the peace that God leaves you with when almost everyone is panicking. Am loving the quiet mornings home alone, singing as loud as I want to while stopping to sing softer when I think the neighbours are walking past.... (: Depending on coffee to keep me awake in the mornings. Never knew coffee could taste so good.

Math wasn't too bad either. My stomach was flipping the whole morning, was super nervous. Spent the whole of last trying to figure out distance/time and speed/time graphs & the all-time jian number patterns. Skipped the number pattern qns in the paper, waste my time. Haha. Glad that I could do 90% of the paper, though I totally crapped at the vectors question. I just cannot seem to get vectors, don't get me started on number patterns. On a lighter note, I won't ever have to touch the ugly math textbooks and formula sheets after tomorrow!!!!! Hooray. Never liked any form of formulas, concepts, logical explanations (logical to them, but not to me).

Anticipating the hugeeeeeeeeeeeeee party after O's! CAN'T WAIT. Jamming with loads of people til I THINK i've lost count. Jamming's the ONE thing i'm looking forward to. Hmm.. OH and getting an iphone, getting a job, saving up for my macbook. Sooo many things to do.

I've got no regrets after walking out of the hall. Whats done is done, I know my future is perfectly crafted in God's hands. There is no point in worrying or regretting, he's got the best plan for you, don't worry! (:

Wanna know why?
Its because you're genuinely acoustic.